Know Thyself

Know Thyself”

A couple of things have arisen for me during lockdown which I wanted to share.

Because there can be a lot of confusion around terminology, I’m not sure how to refer to them. Insights? Realisations? The phrase that fits best for me right now is ‘direct seeing’, where the effect is that of a pair of curtains being pulled apart, allowing sight of something directly and clearly, without impediment. Then the curtains are drawn closed and I’m surrounded by the trappings of normal life again – here’s the chair I’ve just sat down on, here’s the cup of tea, still in my hand.

What I ‘saw’ into was a great fear that I have carried with me all my life. I say ‘saw’ but it felt more like a whole body experience where everything in an instant aligned itself and there was no separation between any aspects of my mind and body. In that moment, my whole life made sense – patterns of behaviour, why things turned out the way they did; how the fear can remain dormant as an underlying condition, informing or determining every decision. (None of this came from the intellect – I’m just using my intellect now to try to describe as closely as I can, my experience).

I felt filled with immense gratitude and relief. As if a deep acknowledgement had taken place. A deep part of me spoke out and told me something about myself. And was heard.

My second instance was again over a cup of tea. I had been ruminating over some slight when suddenly the curtains parted and I ‘saw’ my mind at work: the behaviour I was engaged in at that moment, switched off fear. It was a mechanism at work.

I felt humbled to have seen my mind doing what it thinks is its job. Protecting me. My mind isn’t my enemy after all. I don’t have to keep fighting myself.

I believe that as a result of my particular experience of lockdown, conditions arose that brought about opportunities to ‘see’: enforced isolation plus regular Zoom opportunities to meditate in a formal setting gave me the relaxation and quiet space for shifts to happen.

How has my life changed? I think it is too soon to say much. The consequences need to be lived out and that takes time. I have direct experience of how my mind works in certain circumstances, and knowledge is power. Some things that previously would have upset me no longer seem to: yesterday, a man shouted at me when I pointed out that he and his family were pushing their bikes the wrong way along a one-way (social distancing) pavement. It left no mark on me.

There is more to see.

Anon

 

 

 

 

Teaching from a global pandemic

Teaching from a global pandemic

The global Covid-19 Pandemic, seemed to come from out of the blue, and has created a tidal wave of ceaseless change and deep uncertainty. Many people have, are and will suffer because of the multitude of impacts it has caused, and many around the world have caught the disease and died. Reflecting on what I have learnt from the arising of this situation, I notice how firstly, although this situation is new it is also not new at all. This points to how, I have clung to ideas of permanence and solidity, and while I have had an intellectual understanding about the nature of impermanence and endless change, as well as some experiential understanding of this within my own life, I have still managed to hold on to deluded ideas of permanence. The depth of clinging, resisting and pushing away has been revealed in its rawest form to me. We move through life with many assumptions, such as that tomorrow will be much the same as today, and these assumptions filter into the minutest of details of our lives. We do this to give ourselves some sort of comfort and sense of security, but when suddenly faced with a different reality, we can struggle to deal with the shock and this is because we’ve been pulling the wool over our own eyes all along.

When were we not at risk of disease or death? When was constant change not happening on all levels both within us and within the world? For me, the pandemic brought to the surface deep fears of my own death, and leaving my children behind while they are still dependent on me. I feared my elderly father would catch the virus and die. I feared for the future of my studies and research and that these may have to come to an end as the research trial I am working on was suspended. Certain relationships where there are unresolved long term issues came to mind, in the face of a more imminent ending, how did I want to leave all of this? Have I done enough to ‘clean things up’ within myself and within my life? A voice inside said, “I’m not ready”, but we don’t have control over many of these things, when we or others die, or the events in the wider world. Fear arises particularly in situations where our false sense of having some control is shattered and the current situation has shown me where I have been allowing myself to believe I have some control and how this temporarily alleviates the discomfort of the true reality of things.

All of this has showed me, starkly, exactly where I am clinging, where I am invested in things too heavily or in unhelpful ways. The lockdown situation dramatically changed my living situation, with my older daughter returning home from university, my younger daughter home schooling and myself and my husband both working from home. The pressures and tensions that arose from this situation, also showed me where, until now, I have been pushing away and clinging on in certain ways, for example by avoiding certain things I don’t really want to face up to and distracting myself from these with seemingly harmless forms, but distracting myself nonetheless and again not facing things exactly as they are.

As we emerged from lockdown, we were faced with and still are faced with, more and more subtle choices. We hear multiple voices and opinions on what we should or can do. But we are left with the ultimate choice, we hold the wheel for ourselves over what is good to do. I realise on a deep level, that I do not trust myself enough, and at times when I feel something is right, I doubt myself. I also blame myself for many things, and I have seen that this doubt and blame has been an insidious and damaging force, causing suffering to myself and others as it has influenced my actions and behaviours, probably throughout most of my life. As I continue to train, I know I need to be vigilant in watching out for this within myself, and each time to put it down, at the same time without judging it and to trust that within myself that is true.

The urgency of our current situation, and the undeniable effect of change and uncertainty, draw me nearer to the fact that we do not have time to waste with ‘this and that’. We will die, and when I die, I want to know in my heart that I have trained to the best of my ability, with the tools I have been given in this body, in this lifetime, to clean up my own karma. I have always taken training seriously, and my wish to train is a deep and sincere wish. However, I have at times let myself off the hook too easily and I feel now that I must also work hard on this, not to push myself beyond my limits, but to remember that each moment counts, and there is no time to lose because in each moment, we are dying. In the Buddha’s final teaching he told us “Practice the good teachings with a diligent heart for there is no time to lose… do not doze off and let your eyes close lest you allow your whole life to pass in vain without realization”.

I realise that it is not enough to know that the sun is behind the clouds, we need to keep blowing those clouds away. We need to be willing to be disturbed by the truth, and sit firmly grounded within the rough waves that batter our shores. Allow ourselves to feel the deep fear, see where it is rooted. What is it that is afraid of dying? What is it that sits with uncertainty and fears change? We need to keep asking these questions and continue to dissolve the self.

Finally, I also realise more acutely, the power of being part of the sangha and the deep refuge that we can take there. But also, that here there is also clinging. I have lived with a sense that Reading Buddhist Priory and Throssel Hole Abbey are permanent fixtures, will always be there to be relied upon. Having been unable to sit at the priory or visit Throssel for six months now, I realise too, that the reliance on these being there are also clinging. What will I do, if those things are no longer there in the future? I also realise more than ever that refuge in the sangha is not one way, it’s not lay people like me seeking refuge in the monastic community or local prior, but that we as lay people need to take the greatest of care of the pillars of the temple, our monks. My sense of gratitude for the lives and training of the monastic sangha is deeper than ever, without whose training, the teaching would not be passed to me, so that I may be able to realise the truth.

Holly Baker

A Talk by Rev. Seck Kim Seng

I read this out to the last Sunday Group before closing. I have carried a photocopy of this with me for many years and thought this was a good time to revisit it. Thank you to the OBC Journal for allowing me to share. I will just publish it complete.

During Rev. Seck Kim Seng’s visit to Shasta Abbey in 1974, he presented Rev. Roshi Jiyu – Kennett and the community with a beautiful Chinese calligraphy which he had lettered especially for us. What follows here is a slightly edited version of his explanation, originally appearing in the Journal of November 1974. – ed.

I would like to tell you directly and personally what I have written. These first four characters are your name, Zen Mission Society (the former name of the Order of Buddhist Contemplatives). When Hui – Neng wanted to speak, he said to all the people, “You are very learned men.” Next I have written that I am going back to Malaysia and am leaving this as a reminder of my visit. The following column is a sentence from the smaller Sukhavati – Vyuha. Anyone who comes to the Pure Land is a very holy man. I came to see you because I wanted to know if you were holy men as in the Pure Land.

The next two columns are from the Hui – Neng Sutra. Before he gave the speech, Hui – Neng said, “Everyone has the Buddha Nature. This Buddha Nature is the seed of enlightenment and is naturally pure. If you make good use of the Buddha Nature, you can reach Buddhahood directly.” This means that we can all, everyone, become Buddha. The idea that all men have the Buddha Nature like Buddha is very important. Our Buddha Nature is pure; when we simply make good use of our Buddha Nature, then we can reach Buddhahood very easily.

The next two columns are from the Pari Nirvana Sutra. Shakyamuni was asked by a disciple, “While you are alive, you are our teacher, but when you enter Nirvana, who will teach us?” Shakyamuni answered, “When I enter into Nirvana, the Precepts are your teacher.” The Precepts are like a rule fixed by Shayamuni. They allow us to do or not to do, and are our guide in learning mindfulness. Everyone must follow the Precepts as their teacher, everyone must study the Sutras. The disciple asked again, “Shakyamuni, when you are alive, we follow you; if you go there, we go with you; if you stay here, we stay with you. But after you enter Nirvana, where are we to stay?” Shakyamuni said, “Remember the Four Plain Beads (also called the Four Views), that is, 1) the body is impure (i.e. has no substance, its Real Substance being the Buddha Nature which appears in all things); 2) sensation results in suffering; 3) mind is impermanent; and 4) things have no nature of their own.” The first means, do not dwell on your body; stay in mindfulness. Those who think I love my body” assume that they own their body. Then everything they do is infected with greed and hate. If you understand that the body is impure, then there is nothing for you to love.

The second is that sensation is the cause of suffering. That is why, in the Hui-Neng Sutra, Hui-Neng says that two is not the Buddha’s teaching. The teaching of the Buddha is only one. You only receive sensation when you are attached to the body. This body is made up of six organs (eye, ear, nose, tongue, touch, perceptions), and six senses (consciousness of each sense). For instance, the quality of the ear is sound: the ear is the organ; the sense is you hearing or taking notice. Suppose the sound is there and my ear is here. If I do not pay attention, perhaps taking great interest in you, then although the sound comes to my ear, I do not hear – because the consciousness is not directed to the sound.

These six organs, six qualities, six senses make up eighteen realms. From the time you get up in the morning to when you go to bed, at any moment, you cannot do anything without these eighteen realms. Ordinary people make two judgements: good and bad. Suppose I overhear you speaking well of me; then I am happy. If you speak badly of me, I get angry. If I visit you and you welcome me, then I feel very good; but if I go to your house and you are rude to me, I do not feel liked. If you are kind to me, then in the future I will welcome you to my house. If you are rude to me, then I may be rude to you and will not welcome you. Thus these two things, good and bad, dominate ordinary people.

But the Buddha is like a mirror. Whether something is good or bad, all is one. If you are good, I know you are good, but I do not feel happy; if you are bad, I know you are bad, but I do not feel angry. That means that the Buddha is very pure in mind. The Buddha is free of these two reactions because to Him it is all the same. That is why in Buddhism you do not think in nterms of what you will receive. Instead, be like a mirror. Shakyamuni Buddha is our model of a pure mind. The Budda’s action is based on knowing the good and the bad without reacting blindly. Remember that after Shakyamuni Buddha enters Nirvana, the teaching is everywhere you are, and you will be happy.

The next column says that in Buddhism there are two types of trainees: Arhat and Bodhisattva. The Arhat studies the Four Noble Truths: suffering, its cause, the end, and the way of suffering. The cause of suffering is in the past; our present suffering is the result of the past. We know the suffering. We have suffering because we have a body, because we have come to be reborn. And why are we reborn? Because of our past actions. But if we know the cause, we can stop the result. That is why knowing the cause leads to no rebirth, or Arhat Nirvana. The Four Noble Truths teach you to be released from rebirth via the Eightfold Path: correct understanding, correct thought, correct speech, correct action, correct livelihood, correct effort, correct mindfulness and correct concentration. If you follow this path, you will stop rebirth and enter Arhat Nirvana, but not Boidhisattva Nirvana.

Nirvana is of three kinds: 1) Arhat, 2) Bodhisattva, 3) Buddha (complete). Now the Arhat meditates, taking care of his various duties, doing no evil to others. But he does not do good; simply not doing evil is not the same as doing good. If a thief no longer steals, you cannot say he is a good man, just that he is not a bad man. To be a good man, then you must have charity and generosity. An Arhat is neither good nor bad. If you want to know Buddha, you must do good, you must be charitable.

In order to do good, the Bodhisattva will follow the Six Paramitas: charity, love, morality, energy, meditation, wisdom. That means you go among people who are ill with the six kinds of sickness. You are like a doctor using the Six Paramitas to cure their illness:

Greed – charity (generosity)

Hatred – love

Desires (lying, stealing, etc.) – morality

Laziness – energy

Confusion – meditation

Ignorance – wisdom

Like a doctor, you benefit others and progress up the ten stages of a Bodhisattva. A Bodhisattva progresses in his training as a doctor does until he graduates. Arhatship is like grade school from which one progreesses to university (Bodhisattva) until one becomes Buddha.

The next column means I want all of you to become Bodhisattvas. For a Bodhisattva, the most important Paramita is generosity. There are three kinds of gifts: 1) money, 2) life, 3) teaching. Money is not so meritorious; life is more so; teaching is the greatest. You must give teaching to others by spreading the teaching of the Buddha every day. The Six Paramitas are our occupation and duty. To teach, to cook and wash are our daily tasks.

I speak in broken English but I want you to understand that it is from heart to heart. Tomorrow I go back to Malaysia. love you all and hope you will become Buddha.

Rev. Master Jiyu being ordained by Rev. Seck Kim Seng

 

Ceremonial descriptions and illustrations

If you struggle with some of the aspects of ceremonial here are a few photos with descriptions to hopefully help you.

Bowing:

Understanding bowing is key to going deeper into an appreciation and understanding of Buddhist practice. To fully bow is to truly let go of whatever we are holding on to.

Going clockwise from the top left we a picture of a seated bow. This is mostly used during the evening service ceremony where we recite Rules fo Meditation. Whether we are on a cushion, bench or chair the movement is the same by bending forward at the waist as far as we can and raising our hands, with palms up, after the ting of the signal gong.

Next we have what is called a monjin which is used mostly for the gratitude bows at the end of ceremonies. Turning towards the altar and putting our hands together in gassho bow from the waist as described in the previous picture.

Finally we have the full bow. This is where we kneel on the ground, if we can, bend forward and raise our hands. If we can’t do this it is fine to do a standing bow which is similar to the monjin but we raise the hands rather than stay in gassho.

Candle Offering:

We often offer a candle instead of incense here at the Priory. An offering of light is the offering up of the dharma of enlightenment in much the same way that the incense of the dharma spreads out and infuses all places and things.

You may wish to offer a candle before a meditation period or maybe offer merit privately on an altar. If you are a chaplain you will need to hand over the candle to the celebrant so that he can offer it. If so here is a handy guide to how to do this. To hand the candle to the celebrant have it in the palm of your hand so that it is easy for them to take it. This will help with fumbling, awkward manouvering and less likelihood of dropping it, see top two pictures. The bottom two pictures show how to offer the candle up. The right hand photo shows that when we hold it up it is not advisable to hold it to the forehead as your hair may singe or indeed catch fire. Then hold it out as you quietly say the Three Homages, which are Homage to the Buddha, Homage to the Dharma, Homage to the Sangha. Then place the candle on the altar. Pleaqse make sure that lit candles are placed safely so that that can’t be knocked off or set any materials , like the altar curtains, alight. Please extinguish if the candle is to be left unattended i.e. when leaving the room after the ceremony etc.

 

The arrows of Mara

Quote

I’d like to start with a short quote that I came across recently.

You cannot prevent the birds of sadness from flying over your head, but you can prevent them from nesting in your hair.’

I’ve found this quote to be a way into this talk. We can do something about our troubles – they don’t have to take us over. When the Buddha was sitting under the tree, Mara’s armies attacked him quite fiercely, throwing everything at him. A long time ago, I remember, I thought of him sitting there, with almost a force field around him so that everything was deflected, but I was quite wrong- that’s not the way to deal with these things. It’s to let them through, not to push them away, not to hold them off, to not see them as enemies but to let everything just pass through you, and this is what the arrows did – they passed through and turned into flowers. That which we perceive as attacking us is converted.

As the Buddha got up after awakening, the first teaching he gave was the Four Noble Truths, and the first of those as we know, is that suffering exists. So we can’t prevent the birds of suffering, we can’t prevent the birds of sadness from flying over our heads. We, too, are subject to the laws of karma but the wise man isn’t bound by them, and in doing so, we join the birds in the sense that we don’t omit them. So we accept sadness, we acknowledge sadness, so when we sit and things arise for us we just let them arise. There’s no problem in the arising of sadness , this is natural, this is what is natural for us. To do something about it at that stage, to twist it, to turn it around is a false move. The Buddha realised this as he was sitting under the tree. To push back at Mara was a false move. The fact that things arise doesn’t mean that they will always arise. This is also key – how often do we think, ‘Well, nothing’s changed. This is never going to change, this is who I am, I’ve always got this trait,’ It won’t always arise. It continues to arise because we perpetuate it – we don’t even know we’re doing it sometimes. We reinforce behaviours, we believe something’s been banished and yet it still arises. It’s arising because we’re doing something with it, so it gathers strength and comes around again.

So when we sit, when the Buddha sat, he observed the settling of the mind. When we sit, the mind settles, and it’s not separate from the body, so we talk about mind-body. A lot of the trouble comes, a lot of the unsettledness of sitting is when we’re stuck in the mind and we’ve divorced it from the body. So, notice the settling of the body and mind when we sit, and see where the mind places itself, usually further down in the body. Sinking to the floor our thoughts find quiet. This activity then re-aligns itself from the head into the body. This is harmony – body and mind working together as one. When it’s all sinking, we are able to sit still. The Buddha was assailed on all sides; he had to sit very still. He sat, as Dogen said, in the mountain-still state, and when we do this we can see through the perceived reality of life. Those things we perceive to be true, we perceive them as ‘other’. We grasp onto these illusions , we form a character and a personality. We show a face to the world, and it plays out through us. Some of this we need to do, we do need to be active in the world. We do need to be a human being with everything that encompasses. And yet again, a wise man is not enslaved by it; these too, are not fixed things .

So, Mara was the Buddha’s restless mind; Well, Mara attacks us because there’s still something there to be attacked. So, when we sit and we’re troubled, it’s the unresolved karmic residue that comes to the surface. We deal with it by not doing anything with it. This is one of the big apparent paradoxes of practice. We are so attuned to having to do something about something we try to take over and do it. We don’t need to do it. This tempts us to believe that there is a reality in impermanance. We see it as real, tangible and give it permanance and yet like any other thing it just passes. So when we sit and see things or have thoughts about our life as in a mirror we see clearly, it seems. Yet these are images of the drifting wandering world.

So these thoughts appear to be just as things are, but they are just thoughts. Nevertheless we believe them because it is what we know and because we already know it we recognise it. So our view of the world is shown back to us and it’s possible to believe it. It’s the way we think so that is what is being shown to us. We therefore have trouble seeing through the images, thoughts and emotions which latch on to us and we act from that place. The trouble is everything is always moving. When the Buddha got up from under the Bodhi tree he picked up his bowl and started to wander forth the first people he came across were the five Rishis who he had practised ascetism with previously. The Rishis practised by pushing their bodies and minds to extreme limits as a way of transcending the limits of this earthly body. The Buddha parted from them as he had realised that this wasn’t the way to seek the end of suffering. Their bodies emaciated, twisted, burnt and skewered they asked him if he had found a better way to encounter the true spirit as they saw in him a change from the person they had last met and wondered what it is that he has seen and experienced. The Buddha having found the middle way just passed on. He knew that to stay in the extremes was only to allow suffering to arise again and again. When we stay in the opposites, in duality we are reinforcing old behaviours.

In 1879 Edwin Arnold published a long poem called the Light of Asia which describes the Buddha’s life. In it there is a section which I would like to quote which speaks on this.

Onward he passed

Exceeding sorrowful, seeing how men

Fear so to die they are afraid to fear,

Lust so to live they dare not love their life,

But plague it with fierce penances, belike

To please the Gods who grudge pleasure to man;”

So if we fear to die we live our lives in fear. If we fear to live we live in fear. If we lust to live we do not love our life. Our mind comes up with fierce penances and we beleaguer ourselves with them. We are constantly in the opposites. Harmony isn’t a case of balance. Finding ourselves falling on one side we don’t have to err on the other side to balance our lives out.

We need to fully live this life the best way we can. Feel the sensations and know the fears and rejoice in the breathing. If we give vent to anger, frustration and other emotions that cause hurt it is released only for it to return. The world is rarely to our liking and the behaviour of others can test our peace of mind and outside influences are readily blamed for our unhappiness and discontent. Karma if left unattended is unlikely to be converted. So when we allow ourselves to be feel threatened see that we are just introducing and continuing behaviours that are unhelpful for ourselves and others.

A recent topic of debate here at the Priory has been that of the use of the will. The question has arisen of me that I say that essentially in zazen we do nothing and that also there is the use of the will. I am asked ‘so how can we use the will if I don’t do anything?’Well if we don’t turn towards that which causes suffering it will continue to ferment and stew creating more suffering. So it bubbles away and stews and just creates more. Suffering arises in the mind, ferments in the mind and develops in the mind. This is all part of the use of the will here. We therefore learn that to turn towards that which appears is to have the chance to see through it and not give it a chance to grow. The mountain still state allows us to let the arrows of Mara’s bowmen to penetrate and go straight through. This is showing us yet again that we are not bound by karma although subject to its laws. As with fear we can allow ourselves to know it and let it pass through. We see it as an arrow and we know it is an arrow but as it has no substance and we are empty what is there to stop it passing through. This is the use of the will which is the turning towards what we need to see. We are willing to look so the will is the willing to look. It goes from being on our shoulder shadowing us and comes to the front. We might not be able to name it and we might not even recognise it yet we need to see it and then it can go. So we acknowledge and embrace the fear by enfolding it. If it stays on our shoulder faceless and threatening we can never turn enough to see it. Bring it to the front. When talking about the Paramitas Dogen commented that while practicing the six virtues and attempting to lose delusion there is the practice of nothing. He says that this is the practicing of the dharma. From this we can see that the turning towards is the practicing of nothing at all. The Buddha saw the Morning Star and the Morning Star was the just doing and in the just doing Mara receded.

Transcribed from a talk given after the Festival of the Buddha’s Enlightenment

Poem extract from The Light Asia Windhorse publications

A short piece on zazen

This short piece of writing is intended for those of you new to this practice.

I follow the practice of Soto Zen Buddhism. The twin pillars of this are meditation and the Precepts. The Precepts are the active aspect of practice. Meditation (zazen) is the bedrock from which everything flows. A good way into understanding this is the beginning of the Scripture of Great Wisdom, which goes,

‘When one with deepest wisdom of the heart, which is beyond discriminative thought’.

Zazen is the letting go, without judgement, of that which arises in our minds. Doing this regularly allows us to see a deeper truth to the one our minds generally conjure up. We see that when we follow these discriminatory thoughts they can drive us in ways that aren’t helpful, and form behavioural loops which are difficult to get out of. Meditation is a way to see through these repeating patterns and show that it is possible to have peace and contentment in our lives. We return to our spiritual home, a place which we had left but never quite forgot.

Ceremonial Instruction

INTRODUCTION

This class is designed to allow first timers, as well as those wishing to brush up their skills, some background into what ceremonial essentially is, and how that can help us in our daily practice. How can we practice meditation in daily life? If we can grasp what it is we are doing the actual practical side of it falls into place and enables us to be more adept because it is not an isolated skill.

Those elements of practice that mean we can listen more deeply and let go of those opinions which hinder our ability to follow, are studied, and we can see their importance in allowing ourselves to be less hide bound and stiff. Do we follow the form or the teaching is in evidence, and we can learn to follow more deeply the inner call.

Ceremonial is a living experience which subtly changes each time we do it. We are all part of the ceremony and are not mere observers. If we can enter fully into it then we can go deeper in our practice, and see how we can draw on that in our daily life. It is our willingness to offer that allows us all to step forward into the unknown and trust something deeper than ourselves.

Whether your job is precenting or chaplaining, you are learning to assist and follow the celebrant as well as your heart. When we are working together harmoniously it really shows letting go in practice and is a joy to experience.

SHORT MORNING SERVICE

Precenting;

Starts with two sets of three bows. Celebrant steps onto bowing seat. Start ring down as they bow. Seven steady evenly spaced hits of the signal gong, leading to the ring down. Two sets of one hit ending with one set of two hits. Repeat. As celebrant starts to rise from floor start second set. Repeat.

Watching celebrant, when they are ready, i.e. settled, strike large gong for incense offering. As they step aside and bow hit gong once more and then again as they bow on bowing seat.

Go straight into intoning Scripture of Great Wisdom , (on F ), and lead the singing. After intoning strike gong for incense offering, only striking gong again as celebrant walks onto bowing seat and makes monjin. Carry on with the scripture until you need to strike the gong for the second incense offering. There is a second asterisk, but don’t follow this but hit the gong again when the celebrant stands back on the seat and makes monjin.

At end of scripture go straight in to offertory, (on F), then Ancestral Line. The AncestraL Line is intoned on one note and shouldn’t have a discernible gap between names. Take a breath when you need one but preferably during Daiosho rather than the name.

Go straight into short offertory and three homages. This is followed by six bows as before and three gratitude bows. Wait for celebrant to be ready then as he starts to bow hit gong, then as he steps back and bows strike gong and once again. Celebrant goes straight to Founders Shrine alone. After Founders Ceremony celebrant starts to leave room stopping to bow to Precentor,(and chaplain, if there is one), you return bow, celebrant leaves. You lead bows in all directions to finish off. 3 Strikes of signal gong , bowing left, right and centre.

Chaplaining;

Start by standing below the bowing seat to the left, holding an unlit stick of incense or lit candle, (ask the celebrant what they would like). During the bows stay still without joining in bows.

When the large gong is struck go up on your toes holding the incense or candle out with stretched arms making a circling motion away and back to your body. When you are back off of your toes side step to the right twice then proceed up the side of the bowing seat with arms outstretched, keeping behind the celebrant. When you reach the altar go up on your toes as before and hand the incense/candle to the celebrant. Having done so side step, bow then return to starting place, go up on toes again. Then do your six bows in situ. Stay in place to assist celebrant i.e. give them chair if needed for Ancestral Line etc.

Assistant chaplain;

Do same as chaplain except on other side. When crossing over chaplain goes in front of Assistant chaplain.

EVENING SERVICE

Precenting;

The differences for precenting evening service are that the incense offering comes first. 3 bows follow and the scripture is spoken. All else is the same. There is no Founders ceremony following the ceremony.

Chaplaining;

No difference essentially, to Short morning service.

FESTIVALS

Precenting;

The main things to concentrate on for Festivals is leading singing which few present maybe familiar with and also singing (or speaking ) the offertory alone.

Gongs etc. are the same as in other ceremonies. Incense offering first, then a longish gap before secong gong when celebrant side steps. Depending on Festival, numbers of bows can differ but usually 3. There are tings to indicate when circumambulation starts.

You will asked well in advance if you can and wish to do it. Therefore can rehearse well before hand. There is always a rehearsal before we start so any last minute questions can be gone over then.

Chaplaining;

The essentials are the same as other ceremonies. The main differences are that the chaplain will also help with the food offering, and put a pure leaf in their mouth for this part.

Assistant chaplain;

if there is an assistant chaplain, they will assist also with food offering and mirror the chaplain.

VESPERS

To sing vespers the main thing to know is that it is sung slightly slower than for the morning. Not funereal but slightly slower. At the end the Makura Om gets less loud and sort of fades away at the end.

OFFERING INCENSE FOR MEDITATION

The same as for ceremonial. Stand to side of centre of altar when offering candle/incense. Return to starting point. No need to go up on toes as it is not a ceremony and you won’t be handing to celebrant.

This class is designed to allow first timers, as well as those wishing to brush up their skills, some background into what ceremonial essentially is, and how that can help us in our daily practice. How can we practice meditation in daily life? If we can grasp what it is we are doing the actual practical side of it falls into place and enables us to be more adept because it is not an isolated skill.

Those elements of practice that mean we can listen more deeply and let go of those opinions which hinder our ability to follow, are studied, and we can see their importance in allowing ourselves to be less hide bound and stiff. Do we follow the form or the teaching is in evidence, and we can learn to follow more deeply the inner call.

Ceremonial is a living experience which subtly changes each time we do it. We are all part of the ceremony and are not mere observers. If we can enter fully into it then we can go deeper in our practice, and see how we can draw on that in our daily life. It is our willingness to offer that allows us all to step forward into the unknown and trust something deeper than ourselves.

Whether your job is precenting or chaplaining, you are learning to assist and follow the celebrant as well as your heart. When we are working together harmoniously it really shows letting go in practice and is a joy to experience.

SHORT MORNING SERVICE

Precenting;

Starts with two sets of three bows. Celebrant steps onto bowing seat. Start ring down as they bow. Seven steady evenly spaced hits of the signal gong, leading to the ring down. Two sets of one hit ending with one set of two hits. Repeat. As celebrant starts to rise from floor start second set. Repeat.

Watching celebrant, when they are ready, i.e. settled, strike large gong for incense offering. As they step aside and bow hit gong once more and then again as they bow on bowing seat.

Go straight into intoning Scripture of Great Wisdom , (on F ), and lead the singing. After intoning strike gong for incense offering, only striking gong again as celebrant walks onto bowing seat and makes monjin. Carry on with the scripture until you need to strike the gong for the second incense offering. There is a second asterisk, but don’t follow this but hit the gong again when the celebrant stands back on the seat and makes monjin.

At end of scripture go straight in to offertory, (on F), then Ancestral Line. The AncestraL Line is intoned on one note and shouldn’t have a discernible gap between names. Take a breath when you need one but preferably during Daiosho rather than the name.

Go straight into short offertory and three homages. This is followed by six bows as before and three gratitude bows. Wait for celebrant to be ready then as he starts to bow hit gong, then as he steps back and bows strike gong and once again. Celebrant goes straight to Founders Shrine alone. After Founders Ceremony celebrant starts to leave room stopping to bow to Precentor,(and chaplain, if there is one), you return bow, celebrant leaves. You lead bows in all directions to finish off. 3 Strikes of signal gong , bowing left, right and centre.

Chaplaining;

Start by standing below the bowing seat to the left, holding an unlit stick of incense or lit candle, (ask the celebrant what they would like). During the bows stay still without joining in bows.

When the large gong is struck go up on your toes holding the incense or candle out with stretched arms making a circling motion away and back to your body. When you are back off of your toes side step to the right twice then proceed up the side of the bowing seat with arms outstretched, keeping behind the celebrant. When you reach the altar go up on your toes as before and hand the incense/candle to the celebrant. Having done so side step, bow then return to starting place, go up on toes again. Then do your six bows in situ. Stay in place to assist celebrant i.e. give them chair if needed for Ancestral Line etc.

Assistant chaplain;

Do same as chaplain except on other side. When crossing over chaplain goes in front of Assistant chaplain.

EVENING SERVICE

Precenting;

The differences for precenting evening service are that the incense offering comes first. 3 bows follow and the scripture is spoken. All else is the same. There is no Founders ceremony following the ceremony.

Chaplaining;

No difference essentially, to Short morning service.

FESTIVALS

Precenting;

The main things to concentrate on for Festivals is leading singing which few present maybe familiar with and also singing (or speaking ) the offertory alone.

Gongs etc. are the same as in other ceremonies. Incense offering first, then a longish gap before secong gong when celebrant side steps. Depending on Festival, numbers of bows can differ but usually 3. There are tings to indicate when circumambulation starts.

You will asked well in advance if you can and wish to do it. Therefore can rehearse well before hand. There is always a rehearsal before we start so any last minute questions can be gone over then.

Chaplaining;

The essentials are the same as other ceremonies. The main differences are that the chaplain will also help with the food offering, and put a pure leaf in their mouth for this part.

Assistant chaplain;

if there is an assistant chaplain, they will assist also with food offering and mirror the chaplain.

VESPERS

To sing vespers the main thing to know is that it is sung slightly slower than for the morning. Not funereal but slightly slower. At the end the Makura Om gets less loud and sort of fades away at the end.

OFFERING INCENSE FOR MEDITATION

The same as for ceremonial. Stand to side of centre of altar when offering candle/incense. Return to starting point. No need to go up on toes as it is not a ceremony and you won’t be handing to celebrant.

The donkey in the well

One day a farmer’s donkey fell into the well. It began crying out, crying out for help. The farmer tried all he coulkd to work out how to retrieve the poor animal. He finally thought that as the animal was old, and the well needed covering up as it was dry he would kill two birds with one stone.

He went to get get help from his neighbours and they all started shovelling in earth to bury the donkey and fill the well.

What happened next surprised everyone. As the earth was shovelled in and started to cover the the beast, it calmy just shook the earth from it’s back and stepped on to the growing pile. As the farmers shovelled and the pile grew the donkey kept shaking off the dirt and stood atop the mound of earth. Eventually of course the earth and therefore the resiliant donkey rose to the top and easily stepped out of the well and trotted off.

There are two things here. First, unintentional consequences. The farmer wasn’t exactly acting in the best interest of the donkey. He misunderstood the role of cause and effect in the sense that he thought to solve his problem he couldn’t see beyond an action that came from a fixed point. The point being a sense of the permanent self.

The other thing here is that although starting out, so to speak, from a false position, asthe scene plays out we can adjust and learn. In other words see what is happening and then shovel with the intention of releasing the donkey.

One of the joys of training and being in training is to see how quickly we can see where something has gone off. ‘Normally’ when clashes happen or differences of opinion come up we can carry these around and stew for a long time. A very long time. In practicing we come to a much quicker realisation of where we are and can shift and move to be in line sooner. The joy is in not carrying the suffering but knowing to, and knowing how, to put it down.

The other element of the story is to see that whatever life throws at us we can literally shake it off and rise above it. We can feel weighed down and covered over by our emotions and feelings. It can all seem too much and in doing so fail to see that we are allowing outside conditions to drive us. The donkey was wise and saw that here was an opportunity. The intention behind the shovelling is immaterial to us turning our life around. The act of doing harm has an effect, but it doesn’t have to drive us.

The story doesn’t indicate at what point, if at all, the people saw what was happening and then joined in more positvely, let’s hope that’s case. Even so it still shows that one can work with those who are making life difficult, and when doing so the way appears.

When seen through the eye of compassion the donkey’s response was to see what it needed to do and not get bogged down in anxiety, or revengeful feelings. This shows us that the direct route is simpler and clearer. Compassion for the farmer, compassion for the situation and compassion for oneself.

When one finds oneself in a seemingly impossible position where there is no obvious way out and the world is then burying you alive, think of the donkey.

‘Dreaming of perfection’.

The Wild White Goose is the diary of Rev. Master Jiyu’s time in Japan. I would like to use the entry for 17th June as a starting point.

Rev. Haijime said something very sad; he said that human beings are really selfish animals, but that they want to dream of perfection. When they speak hatred and evil they are dreaming of perfection. He concluded that I should remember what he said to me when he saw me first, “Be very careful or we will break your heart.”

We can quite easily misunderstand perfection. When seen through the eye of dualism, perfection, or I idea of it, becomes skewed. It’s more what we think it might be. It is seen through our personal prism. We can mistake seeing clearly for our wants and desires. Our sense of perfection can masquerade as a certainty of truth. When we believe that what we see is how it is, that is ‘dreaming of perfection’.

In the general run of things, to help us understand the world and by extension ourselves we turn to relying on on a set of known equations which by their very nature are limited. This leads to a mistaking of perfection for idealism. When we stick with the idealistic point of view and not understand the ever changing nature of the skandhas our hearts can be broken. In Buddhist practice it is said that the first thing to go is idealism. This was certainly in my own case. To hold on can lead to a sort of despair and possibly a distrust of the practice. We want practice and and our lives to play out in a certain way and when this is not the case we can turn away.

In the ‘Goose’ Rev. Master Jiyu goes through one heck of a lot. Her patience was tested to the extreme as was the trust in the Master/ disiple relationship. It is noticeable early on in the diaries that she looks outward, (understanderbly), and blames all sorts of things for the pain she is feeling. Slowly she sees that the cause is not to be found there. This insight doesn’t make it easier, yet she sees the need to look to her self if suffering is to lessen. When we find for ourselves what it is we truly are then we are closer to knowing the perfection that is being alluded to. To ‘speak hatred and evil and dream of perfection‘ is to believe that we are correct, misunderstand impermanance and act as if there is no cause and effect.

In a way I am writing about sincerity. When seen from this aspect the above sentence is clearer. I was once told that it is possible to be too sincere. This left me scratching my head at the time but later events helped me to see the wisdom in this. It can produce a blinkered way of training, which in turn is a closing down. We think and believe we are doing good but really have shut down and haven’t remained open to the possibilty of change. What is the refuge? If we can stay open it can truly reveal itself.

The diary entry and subsequent repeats in italics are from the ‘The Wild White Goose, the diary of a female Zen Priest’, by Rev. Roshi P.T.N.H. Jiyu – Kennett. Shasta Abbey Press.

 

A dragon for the Buddha

This is the first of an occassional set of Dharma articles which are intended to be short  teachings.

When I was a young monk in the early 2000s I was asked to finish off the side shrines after the re-decoration of the ceremony hall. Part of this was to paint a dragon on an incense stand that stood before the Achalanatha shrine. Having an art background this request involved a mixture of letting go and memory. I came up with a design which I took to Rev. Master Daishin, the Abbot, for discussion. As I was talking to him about the picture and the project I could feel past attachment getting in there and starting to muddy the waters. It was obvious that my sense of self was still mixed up in this. Was it good enough, can I explain myself clearly to him and also, very simply, is it enough. My previous experience of showing paintings in exhibitions was all mixed up in this. I found that I still related to what I did in the monastery in terms of what would it be like hanging in a gallery. To see this of course was invaluable and I was grateful be in a position where it was highlighted. The koan arising in daily life was never more pertinent. As Rev. Master listened to me get all tangled up he could see very clearly my dilemma. In his wise and compassionate way, which as the years rolled on I was to experience again and again, he looked at me and said, ‘ Remember, you are painting a dragon for the Buddha’. This short sentence exploded the whole thing open and the anxiety melted away. If you translate this into your own life and situations see that what we do is not separate to the dharma, To paint a dragon for the Buddha is eating rice and drinking tea. Painting is Dharma and Dharma is painting.